My struggle with weight loss...

Ok this has been something I have wanted to post for a long time, but I have been nervous because no one likes to show FAT pictures of themselves, right? The main reason I am doing it is because while going through my challenges, a lot of blogs that posted about their weight struggle and how they bettered themselves, inspired me. So if I can inspire ONE person, I feel like this will be totally worth it. So here we go.

After having my two kids I had the hardest time getting the weight off, ok it was hard because I was LAZY!!! I am not one of those women that put the same jeans they wore before baby, after my kids were born. I gained 50 lbs with my first and only lost half of the weight and then gained 20lbs with my second. In Jan of 2011 I stood on the scale weighing 168..... Oh, holly shysta that hurts to say that! I was fed up and decided it was time to take care of me. As a mom I felt like it was selfish to leave the kids and go to the gym or anywhere for that matter, (poor excuse) but to be a better me, I had to do it and it ended up being much better not only for me but for my family. There is NO secret to loosing weight. It is a change in your lifestyle and complete commitment and dedication. In June of 2011 I stood on the scale and weighed 136, I had lost a total of 31 lbs and went down 4 to 5 dress sizes (depending on the pants) I did it the right way. I started eating smaller portions and exercised 4 to 6 days a week. I also joined a indoor soccer league and it is so much fun and such a great workout. Now listen, I am one that HATED DESPISED LOATHED the gym, but in all honesty after I started feeling so great and started seeing results I loved it!! I now actually get excited to go!!! 

Back in the day I was a high school cheerleader and very active, I was in pretty good shape so when I had gained all that weight I did not feel like me! I felt like I was someone completely different. I would hide behind people when the camera came out and I wore long sleeve shirts and long pants in the summer!! I hated showing any part of my body! Now since the weight loss I feel so much better. I actually like getting dressed up, and I'm not embarrassed to wear tank tops anymore! WOO HOO. I am proud of myself and the example I am now for my kids. If I can do it you can do it! It is tough at the beginning, but I promise you it is SO worth it in the end! 

I am never ever going to be a size 2 or maybe not even a size 4, and I am probably never going to wear a 2 piece swimsuit because I have stretch marks tiger stripes all over my stomach,  but I am happy with me. and I think that is all that matters. I still have a goal to meet, but I am happy about how far I have come.